Pretty Face

Humph.

2011-06-28T12:57:00.000-07:00

The day after the last post, dropped to 303.4. The day after that -- 301.8.

Either bodies are weird or I retained all of the wine I had drunk on father's day. Or both.

Well, this blows

2011-06-21T13:52:00.000-07:00

Still stuck at 304 or thereabouts. Only I got frustrated, and indulged (in a super luscious homemade dessert) this weekend, and managed to gain back 2.5 lbs. Which means my total weight loss is now at 3.4 lbs. In 3 weeks. During which I have drastically cut my calorie budget AND added in almost daily exercise from NOTHING.

Seriously, body. WTF?

Plateau

2011-06-10T13:59:00.000-07:00

OK, I realize I'm not supposed to be weighing myself every day, and that an actual plateau is more than 5 days at the same weight, but this BLOWS. I lost 5 lbs the first week on my diet. 2nd week? Added in some light exercise, same diet, and NADA. Seriously. It's like working with no paycheck. And those people who say "It's just about calories." Those people? Can bite me. Because I wrote down every morsel I put in my mouth yesterday (a not atypical day) and the total calories was over 1,000 less than a conservative estimate of my basal metabolic rate (the number of calories I consume just by existing). At that rate, I should be losing approximately 1 lb every 3 days, or about 2 lbs. a week. And NOTHING.

This is why I've gone off pretty much every diet ever. I need consistency people.

Weight: 306.4 Weight lost: 3.4 lbs. Weight to lose: 146.4 lbs.

2011-06-05T17:00:00.000-07:00

Week one. Not too bad. Especially since I had ribs for dinner. Wish I could keep this up. Won't happen.

Starting Weight

2011-06-04T16:58:00.000-07:00

I got on the scale a week ago. 309.8.

That's the beginning.

She has such a pretty face

2011-06-01T16:58:00.000-07:00

Hey world. I'm fat.

You don't hear that much, do you? Fat is such a stigmatized word in our culture. Everyone wants to be thin!

Here's what I am: Fat

Here's what I'm not: stupid, ugly, unhappy, unloved, unproductive, lazy

Here's what I'd like to be: normal. Not thin. But normal. Healthy. Right now I'm too fat.

But at least I have a pretty face, right?